What is Sanity?

Depending on one's perception of sanity, there are various definitions.

After all, I believe that I am sane, while many others think I'm crazy.  Let's  chat about that for a minute.

It has been my experience that most human beings have alittle bit of crazy in them especially when they are pushed beyond their limits.  Fear, anger, grieving, traumatic events and even sadness and depression can all trigger moments of craziness.

It is what some call temporary insanity. 

As a survivor (We will discuss that later) with 30+ years of post-traumatic stress disorder, PTSD, there have been those moments when the mind can empathize with those who have lost it for a minute and have "Gone postal".  There was a time when my mind would wonder what these people were thinking, I could not even wrap my head around any possible 'sane' or so called normal reasons for their actions.  To clarify, I am not saying that I would ever 'go postal', it is only a deeper understanding of the frustrations they must be experiencing at that moment in time.

   

To be continued....

Coming up  :the secret that she had to keep buried, never having closure and as far as she knew, never having justice.

January 24, 2016

I am about to embark on a journey that I have no idea where it will take me.

It a scary journey where I will share with the world an experience that is not only ugly, painful and absolutely the most horrifying thing that I could ever have imagined, and it happened to me.  I am going to relive it in sharing the untold story.  Its a story that I had to keep a secret for thirty plus years.  

Why?  You might ask?

Because not only was my life in danger, but so were the lives of my family members.  It was a real threat.  It was meant to keep me quiet.

And it worked.

Now all these years later, it is time for me to heal.  What these people didn't understand about keeping this to myself, was that I could never close that chapter.  I could never heal.  It has affected my entire life.  Now here I am with so many years wasted that I can never get back.  My youth, my innocence, my life is over as I knew it and has been for 30 plus years.

To be continued...